My heart that is fragile

Surely, there is a way to not be so tender and sensitive towards lots of things. What way is it, and can it even be reached? So exhausted  from trying to practice what I preach.  At the same time, who is purely perfect, at the same time, what makes a person happy and completely worth it.

Things that we don't love the most about someone, can this alone, be what makes us start to regret them?  In my life, I always assume that finding love that doesn't hurt your feelings when you are clearly wrong can and does exist. Well, so far I have been left to discover if this is reality than why do none of my relationship's show this to be true.

I feel perhaps, it's me and my fragile heart that cause these let downs to continue to occur. Tired of being consumed by my different anxieties because they cause my heart to stay fragile and my numbness from pain, way too extremely clear. I become like a statue, and show no kind of emotions, I hate this attribute that happens and is not me at all.

I think this is my defense mechanism, and what a lame one in deed. I wish all things could be better just by the use of sweet weed.

Rain cleansing my soul

The rain is mysterious and enchanting, finding a way to cleanse my soul as though it is a seed I am planting. Touching my skin with wetness and teaching my flesh to feel empowered, a feeling so intoxicating similar to the smell of my favorite flower. My mind set free to the simplicity of every drop that falls, it is as though the rain could know my yearnings and the feelings that it can cause.

Showing me with every bit of water that lingers to different places of my skin, that passion is real and can not just be felt from the outside but also deeply within. The rain is so sure of each place it is destined to fall, that it is marvelous how it goes from covering big places to also small. As the rain embraces my lips, it is almost equivalent to the first time Dante wrapped his hands around my hips.

Then as the rain cleanses my soul, I feel everything around become like my whole.